A bittersweet feeling. Lonely, even if I am in a relationship. Maybe its the cold that sends us New Englanders indoors to hibernate. Maybe its because my girlfriend left (the country) today to visit her family and I’m (stuck) here in RI with mine while she flies miles and miles and miles away from me. I had to say goodbye to her on Saturday as life’s “priorities” and the disappointing blizzard kind of conflicted with me seeing her, say yesterday or Sunday. Its a wonderful life, right? I feel a little like the grinch… kind of like I do every year.
How much does Christmas suck? A holiday that if your lonely makes you more lonely – especially with those goddamn jewelry commercials. The other day I cried over some stupid coffee commercial… this is why I avoid watching television! And even if your with someone, sometimes its still bittersweet. My family and I get along, I shouldn’t complain, but I’m always the single one, the one that everyone keeps saying, ‘maybe one day…’ kind of like my painting… my day has come! well, sort of, I think they meant, “maybe one day, some man will come along, take care of you and marry you…” eh, whatever.
I think of people past and present who didn’t see or can’t see their loved ones for several months and here I am complaining about being separated for a month.
This post on lez get real made the ache a little bit deeper, even though its kind of cute.
